“Try not to resist the changes, which come your way. Instead let life live through you. And do not worry that your life is turning upside down. How do you know that the side you are used to is better than the one to come?” – Shams of Tabriz September was my month, it always […]
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“Try not to resist the changes, which come your way. Instead let life live through you. And do not worry that your life is turning upside down. How do you know that the side you are used to is better than the one to come?” – Shams of Tabriz

September was my month, it always were, I am not big on astronomy and horoscopes, but it always hit me how big changes in my life always occurred by the end of Summer, on the time of my birthday. Earlier this month I turned 25 years old, 25 years of not knowing what the hell I was doing, or what I wanted. Making choices and taking crossroads were not my asset. When going out, I always had the same meal – never really needed to browse through menus – had the same cocktails, I even go through the same aisles at the supermarket, over and over again: routine was my thing, and a good routine makes a perfect life.

With the last of the Summer sun, and the very first Autumn breeze, the wind was blowing hard in my face, it was time for change. Change was the stone I tripped on the night of my Birthday, the night I turned 25 years old. The clock ticked 12 and things started to spin, it was the wheel of fortune as the Tarot card reader displayed my future love card. Essentially this card denoted that your wishes can surely be granted, but you have to know exactly what it is that you want. It does not act as a fairy god mother card, allowing anything of your wildest fantasy to come true, but it asserts that your desires are within your reach and the universe is conspiring to help you in your goal. When the Tarot card reader explained the card to me, I fell on my back, laughing so hard, I was certain that my wishes never really came true, except if I had a say in things or took matters into my own hands, something that was impossible when it came to relationships. When she asked me what is it that I really wanted, I got dumbfounded, I was speechless, this had to be the hardest question I had to answer in my life.

On the night of my Birthday, the wildest thing happened, I could always blame it on me not being really present with all my senses, I was tipsy and dizzy, only that I wasn’t. I was all present, body and soul, I reached out to the changes and grasped them with my own hands, as much as I resisted sudden choices, and unplanned moves, it all just felt right, cleansing like the running water from the shower. I stood there motionless, drenched, the water running into the pores of my skin, cooling my heart, resting my mind.

It’s okay to not know what you want for a while, but it is your duty to discover it, ask yourself what is that you ache for, that your heart finds appealing, things will always fall into place when you let your soul guide you through dark stages, being rational is what keeps you settled, grounded, what prevents you from falling, though it really never takes you places beyond your imagination, places you’ve never visited before, places where Summer doesn’t end.

…The wheel keeps spinning.

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