“We were quite different, but we belonged together, we were more than the sum of our two selves, we were allies, we made our own community, and that is rare in life.” ― Sándor Márai, Embers Her color, gray, was an essential part of her, not an accident. Her anger, timidity, brashness, gentleness, all were […]
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“We were quite different, but we belonged together, we were more than the sum of our two selves, we were allies, we made our own community, and that is rare in life.”
― Sándor Márai, Embers

Her color, gray, was an essential part of her, not an accident. Her anger, timidity, brashness, gentleness, all were elements of her mixed being, her mixed nature, dark and clear right through, like the moonstone. She was lost, unlike her usual calculated self, she didn’t meddle with people who weren’t like herself, although she had a lot of friends who were very not much alike, who held various beliefs, and came from separate backgrounds, she always managed to stay on the safe side of conversations, she didn’t dive too deep, she went uncontroversial, until that day, when her soul was roaming around and accidentally got caught up with his.

She thought it was a cruel joke of nature, that she found herself attracted to him, who was very much unlike her. I mean, wouldn’t it be an awful lot simpler and a lot less messy if she tended to be drawn to those whose personalities are more like her own than those who seem like they are opposites of her. She found that some of her unfulfilled longings had to do with their polar opposites; he was adventurous, free, risky, challenging, and intense.

That was an uncanny territory, these strange lands she ventured on her own, wanting to know more, to learn more about him, about what he believed in, all the things she didn’t know, to dissect his being into small parts of clear material, she needed to turn him into something she knew well to let him in, he could not be unfamiliar, nor queer.

But all through their differences, she became the truly great who, wanting nothing, was content with anything. Accepting all things in a world of illusion as born of cause-effect they lived in a mind above the opposites, and she called them great because they did so. She loved him infinitely, freely, he was her chaos and order, her balance in equalizing their opposites, and their complete sphere, was stillness for her, silence for him.. Their banter stopped, their trivial conversations and debates, there was no need to waltz through their differences anymore, they enjoyed the curves that joined them together, they were a concrete mix now, inseparable and irreversible..

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